For those that know me you know how much I love to plan. Ben and I have always had a five year, 10 year, and longterm plan. It used to drive people nuts that everything in our plans always happened right on schedule. That was of course before children entered the picture. Greyson taught me a lot about letting go of control. It wasn't easy and didn't happen overnight but it happened. But I think as he got older and I was able to schedule again I forgot how thrown off a child can make things.
Many of you know that Ben and I are now expecting our second child. I am having a hard time being excited even though it's what we wanted. I am so sick I rarely make it off the couch or out of bed. I feel like a horrible mom and an even worse wife! Ben has a ton of responsibility at work and then he comes home and has to clean the house, do laundry, grocery shop, cook, and take care of Greyson. I am so blessed to have such a great guy. I am not sure why pregnancy is my trial, I watch people that go through it with flying colors and I spend my time over the toilet in the bathroom. The true low so far was last Wednesday, I couldn't keep anything down and alternated between the throwing up and lying on the bathroom floor. Greyson actually found a little hand massager and would rub my back and say "it's ok mommy". How is it that my 22 month old is taking care of the mom? Since then I've been on medication, but it only makes a little difference. I hope I make it through this and I'm trying so hard to have a positive attitude but I hate being sick and it feels like there is no end in sight.
So if you don't hear from me it's not my lack of caring, it's my inability to see past my own needs at the moment. Hopefully I'll start to feel better soon and may actually leave the house.
Due Date April 17th 2009 (forever and ever away)
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Oh Breezy, I know your pain. My pregnancies are full of throw up and physical therapy because the pain gets so bad I can't walk. Wes too had to take over all responsibilities for a while. It's good for them to take care of us. If you ever want Greyson to come over and play just call. I mean it. Congrats though! They're worth it. I always say if you don't suffer through pregnancy you don't deserve your child.
Breezy, I wish we were closer. We'd take Greyson, so he and Teagen could play and you could not worry about him as much. So great Ben's such a great help. Hang in there.
Oh My! Pregnancy is not easy-- it took my OB/GYN in my second pregnancy to just turn and look me in the eye and say: You don't have to love being pregnant. That helped me since everyone I knew seemed to love it(even my father-in-law made me feeling like I was missing a mommy gene for not enjoying this miraculous time of my life!). She told me of her patients maybe 1 or 2 in 10 actually enjoyed it, and she wasnt sure they were being truthful. Ben is so good- sounds like Jeremy- he would be a great single dad, coming home from working sometimes making dinner and always dealing with the kids right away-- me on the other hand wouldn't be able to handle parenting single! Count your blessings- right now it might not be the blessing in your tummy, but the two blessings taking care of you(HOW SWEET IS GREYSON?). We can count that inside blessing in April.
Yay- I am so excited for you! Puke on Dear One! The more puking, the cuter the baby????
Love, megan
Breezy I will keep you in my prayers. I know how hard it is to feel that way. This last pregnancy put my emotions and body through the ringer. My mom would always remind me that my kids won't remember that I had to lay on the couch all day or that they ate the same thing for lunch everyday, so don't be too hard on yourself.
And I'm sure Ben doesn't mind helping out. Ryan would always tell me that no matter how much he did during the day it was nothing compared to everything I was going through for 9 months for our family. It will eventually end, and you will get a brand new beautiful baby, which makes it all worth it.
Take care!
Oh Breezy! I had not heard the good news. I do feel for you right now though. You have pregnancies just like I do. Lots of puke and my kids taking care of me. Sweet, sweet Greyson! I remember being pregnant with Ivy and laying on the couch listening to ice and water spilling all over the kitchen floor while Sophia was trying to get me a glass of water so I would feel better. I remember feeling many times like this would be our last kid because I was NOT going to do this anymore! Somehow though, as soon as our sweet little baby came to join our family I quickly forgot about all the nausea during pregnancy and suffering during labor and then would do it all over again a couple years later. Women are amazing baby machines! Hang in there! It will all be worth it in the end:0)
So sorry your not feeling well. You are such a trooper. "You can do it" - Bob the Builder
Congrats Breezy! Though right now doesn't seem like the right time to say that :) I'm so sorry you are so miserable, I remember how sick you were with Greyson. I will keep you in my thoughts. Hang in there. Can't wait to see future pics of the new little one!!!
So, so sorry. Wish I was there to help out. I'm glad you were spared that first week so that we could party together. I'm thinking of you often and hope you get feeling better soon.
Congrats on being prego, even though I know it sucks for you right now! You will get through it, you are amazing!
Breezy, congrats on baby number 2!! I'm so sorry you're so sick. That just must be terrible. Tell Ben we think he's a total stud. We need to get together with you guys since you're so close! Seth and Greyson would have a blast together!
Well, congrats girl. Man, its been a long time. Sorry about that, life as you well no is a bit unpredictable. I'm so sorry you've been so sick. Have things been getting better at all? We might be moving back to logan for a while, well the kids and I. Robby "might" be going to Boise to finish his 4th year. If thats the case we are SOOO getting together :) Let me know how your doing.
Also, I sent you an email to check out my website at www.yourheritagememories.com. Let me know what you think :)
Yea!!!!!!!! Congrats on #2! It took me a little while to see the link for comments so I sent you an email first. So sorry pregnancy is so rough on you. Thinking of you...
...and inviting you to AZ for the fall you missed, as we never see winter...
I feel your pain! We are just the "lucky" ones that get to experience the horrible side of pregnancy. All I ever wanted was to LOVE being pregnant. Wrong!!
Good luck and I will keep up on your blog!
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